Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Set Up From The Beginning



Born into the world of satan...from the beginning of conception, he does not want us to live... or if we do, he does not want us to live knowing God or ON EARTH AS IT IS IN HEAVEN. And when we do discover God, it is satan's lifelong mission to ruin our life on earth. Well at least this has been my experience. Perserverence, I guess, is my life long mission. How many times have I fallen or been knocked down and wanted to give up...how many times have I got back up to try again. What I have learned and am still learning is to let God fight for me. Otherwise I'm fighting satan one on one....that's NOT good. To let God fight for me, I have to CHOOSE to believe what God says in the bible. That's my part...and it's near impossible sometimes when satan is bombarding your mind with the opposite, confusing your beliefs, and wearing you to exhaustion so you cannot fight against him (which we are not suppose to do). LET GOD!!! I know God is ALWAYS there with me.... but He wants to fight the battle...I just have to believe, believe, believe...sometimes all I can do is to acknowledge that God IS there with me by calling out...HELP!!... and telling myself that "It's ok...Jesus is going to help me".......http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-v91MIT4GEg

This post is an expression of my battle with my mind. It's been a lifelong one. Not everyone will have this battle and I don't expect everyone to relate or understand. It may help someone who has the same battle to know that someone else understands by experience the battle they live with. When I read Ps. 84 I then knew I wasn't the only one with this experience . I have planned to share my experiences with how I came to believe that God's plan for our life is good and filled with hope, and how God has shown me the good and hope in the world in the midst of the bad and hopelessness.

2 comments:

  1. Don't forget you were "LOVED from the very Begining"!!!
    Psalm 139

    1 O LORD, you have searched me
    and you know me.

    2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
    you perceive my thoughts from afar.

    3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
    you are familiar with all my ways.

    4 Before a word is on my tongue
    you know it completely, O LORD.

    5 You hem me in—behind and before;
    you have laid your hand upon me.

    6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
    too lofty for me to attain.

    7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
    Where can I flee from your presence?

    8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
    if I make my bed in the depths, [a] you are there.

    9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
    if I settle on the far side of the sea,

    10 even there your hand will guide me,
    your right hand will hold me fast.

    11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
    and the light become night around me,"

    12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
    the night will shine like the day,
    for darkness is as light to you.

    13 For you created my inmost being;
    you knit me together in my mother's womb.

    14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.

    15 My frame was not hidden from you
    when I was made in the secret place.
    When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

    16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
    All the days ordained for me
    were written in your book
    before one of them came to be.

    17 How precious to [b] me are your thoughts, O God!
    How vast is the sum of them!

    18 Were I to count them,
    they would outnumber the grains of sand.
    When I awake,
    I am still with you.

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