IN THE WILDERNESS.....

Only for a short time is ok right? The way to the Promised Land is through the wilderness... Why are we there soooo long sometimes? Because we see things in a way that doesn't line up with how God sees things...? We want to go back to the past where things weren't AS bad as the wilderness...but how does that compare to what lies ahead? ...if we only knew the way... God knows and wants to lead us there...to the Promised Land...right? Not set up camp in the wilderness and stay... are we lost? have we given up? is the way too hard a path? Wouldn't it be nice if God would take us above the trees so we can see the path to the Promised Land? how close it is...... and that it really does exist...

Are You Ok With Today If Tomorrow Were The End?

We all have regrets...but can we live from this moment on making no more....IMPOSSIBLE...maybe...I want to wake up every day being thankful for a new day...and go to bed being thankful for the day I just lived...but is that what I did? Not always....but I did for a while when I was fighting cancer and after the cancer was gone.....even still, I am MORE thankful for each day, that is a GIFT from God, ever since then. Even the days that I don't think were good and I didn't treat as a gift...God reminds me...if I'm listening...that there was good in the day...and then I can see the He is right...then I apologise for my attitude and ask God to show me how beautiful His gift of another day is when I wake...and He always does...

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Believing the Truth Even When You Don't See It...

CIRCUMSTANCES are what we see with are earthly eyes or feel with our earthly emotions or think with our earthly mind...BUT in the spirit things may appear quite different....

Like when we read the words in the bible...our mind will start to think like God and we will actually start to see our circumstances with our spiritual eyes instead of with our earthly eyes. Our Mind, Will and Emotions of our Soul will start to become encouraged and changed...and our Body and Spirit will also.

Like when we speak the words in the bible...things actually happen in the spiritual world and start to change the physical world. They are living words and actually accomplish what they say....the words are the TRUTH and are from GOD.

I experienced this as true when I experienced cancer. The words of the doctors spoke of one outcome...but as I spoke the words of God, I experienced another outcome....healing from God.

It wasn't an easy road....I constantly battled with my faith...choosing to believe that I was being healed even when I didn't see results right away. I also know that when I wasn't believing, I had many others that were....

Read and Speak the Words in the Bible that are the Truth even when you don't feel like it....and you will SEE the changes around and in you....and BE ENCOURAGED.

Set Up From The Beginning

Born into the world of satan...from the beginning of conception, he does not want us to live... or if we do, he does not want us to live knowing God or ON EARTH AS IT IS IN HEAVEN. And when we do discover God, it is satan's lifelong mission to ruin our life on earth. Well at least this has been my experience. Perserverence, I guess, is my life long mission. How many times have I fallen or been knocked down and wanted to give up...how many times have I got back up to try again. What I have learned and am still learning is to let God fight for me. Otherwise I'm fighting satan one on one....that's NOT good. To let God fight for me, I have to CHOOSE to believe what God says in the bible. That's my part...and it's near impossible sometimes when satan is bombarding your mind with the opposite, confusing your beliefs, and wearing you to exhaustion so you cannot fight against him (which we are not suppose to do). LET GOD!!! I know God is ALWAYS there with me.... but He wants to fight the battle...I just have to believe, believe, believe...sometimes all I can do is to acknowledge that God IS there with me by calling out...HELP!!... and telling myself that "It's ok...Jesus is going to help me".......http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-v91MIT4GEg

This post is an expression of my battle with my mind. It's been a lifelong one. Not everyone will have this battle and I don't expect everyone to relate or understand. It may help someone who has the same battle to know that someone else understands by experience the battle they live with. When I read Ps. 84 I then knew I wasn't the only one with this experience . I have planned to share my experiences with how I came to believe that God's plan for our life is good and filled with hope, and how God has shown me the good and hope in the world in the midst of the bad and hopelessness.

Magnetic Colours

Like the pull of a magnet to metal, I am drawn into the colours of the sunset. I watch until it is dark and it seems as there is only all the colours together as black. Maybe that's why I love orange...not every one's favourite colour...but is almost always in the sky at sunset. It is mesmerizing, powerfully peaceful and captures my full attention and focus where nothing seems to matter except the changing, moving colours of the sky. I would love to fly into the sunset and follow it around the earth...the never ending sunset. But I can't...so instead I wait for the moon and the stars to follow, and am mesmerized still by the depth and magnetic draw of the ever changing sky...how I wish I could FLY.

I Am Here

How did my life get to here...at age 39 (and 5 months)?

Here ...is...a christian for 18 years....living in an apartment...with my 2 girls (age 7 and 9)...with my second husband (just newlyweds of only 2 months)...very happy...but battling the mind...and freer than I've ever been. I'd like to share with anyone who cares listen how I've made it this far down the path....and still BELEIVING that God has GOOD plans for my life ahead...that isn't lonely, unfulfilling, and without meaning, love, and joy. I have HOPE...that my dreams will come true...HOPE that I will experience true love...HOPE that I will accomplish the things God has set out for me...HOPE that I will SURVIVE the battles to come as I have survived the past..HOPE that I will have PEACE in life no matter what thing comes my way...that brings the deepest JOY only one can experience WITH GOD. I DO struggle..almost DAILY...with my mind...the BATTLE, oh the BATTLE...it has tried to destroy me and my loved ones...THANK YOU GOD... that we are on this path together...HERE...we are......